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< Saturday, January 31, 2004 >

i feel like getting trashed...then crashing and getting a real night of sleep...<sigh> whats going on?!?!?!?!?

ive never been one to lie...not to say that i could be trusted...but if i did something i shouldnt have...i never truly lied about it...or even remotely tried to get away with it...recently it's come up...and the thing is...i cant really do it...i cant just flat out lie like that...but the fact that i even thought about it...makes me wonder a bit...is it because hes not my boyfriend?

what happens when you have nothing left to say in a relationship...cant be good...i didnt think id ever really have this problem...its odd though...i think its really reflecting on other aspects of my life too...but how is it that what was such a great connection in the beginning can turn into virtually no communication at all...hmm...

went to a tv taping today...the help...it was...not so good...haha...the show at least...actually being there wasnt so bad...randomly saw two people i knew from other orgs there too...what are the chances...after the rest of the people went to dinner but i wanted to catch the 730 showing of lost in translation...sold out!!!...so i missed dinner and the movie...drove home...pretty exhausted...

drunken conversation are always fun =) lots of shit talking...and a lot of truth...night all!

:: Gina 12:33 AM ::
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it's now thursday night...i guess i can do a little recaping...

first off...i gotta tell all of you about my new job =) these kids are super cute...well most of them...im in love with one of them in particular...his name is ryan...and he is SOOOOOO cute...hes also one fo the trouble makers...which is no good...but that's besides the point...paul says i cant start favoring him...but its soooo hard! he said he wanted to take me home with him! and he asked if i was married and when i said no he asked if there was a boy who loved me...teeheee...i was like...you mean boyfriend? no i dont have a boyfriend...<grin>

theres a girl alice...shes ADORABLE...one of the cutest lil girls ive ever seen...she got the most stars <for good behavior> so she gets a gift next week...and all she asked for was candy! and i told her she could have something else too...and she was all, "REALLY?!?!"...awww!!! then theres patrick...hes soooo tiny and he can not be quiet for 2 seconds...hes always standing too...cuz when he sits down...his legs dont reach the ground!

sj is the real trouble maker...he whines and does the whole copy what im doing thing =P hes alright...he helped me clean up today...haha sean is another one that cant be quiet for more than a minute...he only got one star...but hes pretty cute too...he's missing his two front teeth...eric is ryan's partner in crime...i think he means well...his only problem is that he's always telling on people...haha...good kid though...very typical korean

sammy is the quiet kid...but hes not very obedient...he'll just sit there and read and when hes done with that he'll play with his erasers for an hour and not listen to anyone else...hes pretty cute too though...amy is the trouble maker girl...shes soooo korean...i dont know her too well either yet cuz she had to leave early the first day...but when i came in yesterday she came over and hugged my arm while i was helping someone else with their homework...very cute!

alright...i hope i didnt forget anyone...i think you'll hear a lot more about them in the following entires =)

mon night i fed the homeless again...this time it was women, children, and men...it kind of sucked though cuz during the mens time some guy tried to start shit...so the whole thing had to be shut down =\...makes sense...but just sad...its still quite an eyeopening experience though...i would definately do it again...and recommend it to anyone who is willing to help =)

watched a japanese movie called "suicide club"...very interesting...its not a true story...but...hmm...i recommend it...if you want to see something disturbing...its sort of clockwork orange like...but not as...intense...i basically watched it...and knew there was meaning behind it...but just flat out didnt understand...maybe some of it was lost in translation...<shrug> paul read up on it...so now it makes more sense...but yeah...disturbing...

i read an article in the DT today about never truly getting over your ex's...she said something interesting...the opposite of love is not hate...its apathy...<nod>

theres so many times when i think to myself, "oh! i should blog that!" but by the time i actually come around to doing it...i just completely forget...

i want to do the universal buy a day get a year free...but i dont know if its worth it...trying to convince paul...that way anytime we're bored...we can just go to universal...haha...but with work and stuff...might not be too worth it...

starting to think about spring break too... march 17th...dont want to fly too far this year...spending half the trip at the airport is no fun...we'll see...i'll probs have a lil money saved up by then too =) anyone else have the same spring break? doubt it...but its worth a shot =P

k...this is long enough...gotta do something more productive...bye bye!

:: Gina 11:39 PM ::
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so i finally accepted a job...im going to be tutoring first graders in k-town...=) 2 hrs a day...4 days a week...i meet them tonight...i hope theyre cute...and well-behaved...haha...basically i help them with homework and i give them some worksheets to do too...make sure their grammar is correct and they capitalized the first letter of the sentence and didnt forget the period. sounds cute.

but then you know how i LOVE kids <sarcasm>...ugh...lets see how long i last =P but if im getting paid...i guess its not too bad =) plus its just to get me by...so that i dont constantly spend spend spend with nothing coming in...im making about the same i made at tapioca weekly...so that should sustain me for the rest of the semester =) and maybe i can ask for more hours later on

so i woke up today at 830 to get ready for class and stuff...its now 1010 and i still havent left...ugh...stupid chinese civilization class...soooooo boring...i need to have something important as my first class or i dont have enough will power to go to it...last semester my important class was the 3rd class of the day...haha...guess how often i went to the first two...

if i pull decent grades this semester...well...lets put it this way...i've come a long way since the AP days...the last four semesters i pulled my gpa up .8...not too bad considering you have to average everything and theres only 8 semesters to avg anywayz...w00t...

alright...this ended up to be longer than i thought...should really get to class now...=P

:: Gina 10:24 AM ::
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had a great weekend =)

thursday went to see win a date with tad hamilton...all i'll say is...don't expect much...the good parts were good...but the bad parts were horrible...still cute though =) and damn that josh...yummy...=)

friday was a looooong day...then had dinner with the rockstars plus others to celebrate sylvia and karen's b-days...of course at cpk...our 2nd home...after that jetted down to irvine and chilled with rosa, lou, and bryant...played a couple rounds of the number clapping game...and a full game of kings...poooo baaaaank < pulls eyes down> man...good times...good times...watched some anime/j-drama...ended the night there...

saturday...recooperated...watched some of my korean drama with my mom...went to the airport to pick up my uncle...had dinner with them...then went with steph, eric, and paul to see big fish...it was better than i thought it would be...but didn't exactly blow me away...

sunday...woke up...picked erica up from chinese school...ate with her...then our internet was down...so we both didn't know what to do...haha...ended up taking a shower...then my dad came home and fixed it...chilled a bit...then went to the mall with paul...he had to get his armani suit tailored...ridiculous...there was a green sweater for $1400...it was really nice though...and really cute shoes...with a matching bag...when i have thousands of dollars to spend on clothes...heh...went to dinner with the family...visited dnb for a bit...crashed at that guys...

got two job offers last week too...another job interview at 1...must get paid...

:: Gina 11:31 AM ::
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sticker pictures from taiwan

:: Gina 9:28 PM ::
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i need to vent...i feel like screaming...and today wasnt even that bad of a day...went to class...came back and chilled...talked online...watched a lil tv...went to a meeting...watched american idol and one tree hill...

talked to a friend and got some stuff ive been holding in out...feels good =)

went to pauls and watched more tv...pretty woman came on just as i was going to leave...ended up sitting through the whole thing...i think its every girls dream...to end up with someone like that...and name me a guy who wouldnt want to be richard gere in that movie...so badass...he is soooooo attractive!!! and how old is he?!?!

it left me probably in the most cheerful mood ive been in in awhile...

then reality hit...<sigh>...it really is the ultimate fantasy movie...

for someone like me who loves to escape through the movies...perfect...

guess i'll just have to wait...hey...a girl can dream =)

:: Gina 3:34 AM ::
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got this werid feeling...not sure what it is...<shrug>...torn...i guess is the best word to describe it...ugh...

enough with the negativity...here's something happy =)





the girls and i at garden friday...good times...good times =)

:: Gina 6:57 PM ::
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taiwan pix? heres a couple courtesy of steph and kelly:


christmas eve at kama...


another one...


room 18...i dont even remember taking this picture...


these were the boys we were partying with...haha...sooooooooo fobby


another one...


one more for the full effect =)


we went shopping at this mall...and bought $20 worth of bread...it was a lot of bread...thats only one tray


decoration in that guy's house...that whole thing is made out of one piece...


room on the 4th floor...


he had this scary bathroom...cant capture the full effect in picture...but just imagine...blood on the walls...haha


in front of a mall...cant really see though...


that guy's family friends house...those deer move...=) the house was gorgeous...too bad the pix came out blurry...

probs post more when i get pix from my cousin...i need a camera damn it!

:: Gina 3:29 PM ::
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Is He Cute: you knwo who angelina jolie is with now?
S: WHO?
Is He Cute: colin farrell
S: hahaha
S: not surprised
S: they match rather well
Is He Cute: what a GREAT looking couple
S: hahahahaha
S: they must have great sex
Is He Cute: i bet they have great sex
Is He Cute: hahahahaha
S: ahhaah

hmm...a bit of gossip for my fellow celebrity whores =)

:: Gina 3:04 PM ::
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hmm...i got really trashed last night...haha

but i guess ill start from the beginning...charles and mina came over to play some pingpong...since they needed to practice being doubles partners they dragged me in to helping them out...towards the end...they said they'd leave when they could win 7 consecutive shots...to give me incentive, chalres said that he would give me $10 toward a dinner for every 5 consecutive shots that i win until they reached their 7...well...i did it 11 times...$110 baby =) hamakawa here i come =P good luck to them on their tournament today =)

the original plan for the night was to play board games...and maybe throw in some shots here and there...but frank...the ultimate flaker...decides at the last moment that he wants to sleep...so there went the whole simpsons jeopardy idea...some of the laguna guys were meeting up...so i figured id just ride up with them...it was like old times =P or something...went to weilands...$2 beers for happy hour...

now the sad part...i dont drink beer...so i figure ill just order a martini or 2 and have a good buzz going for the night...only had $10 anywayz and they were $7 drinks...i had two drinks...a cosmo and a green apple martini...TRASHED...wth!...i guess the cosmo was pretty fucking strong...it was a light shade of pink and i couldnt take a sip without wincing...haha...but still...2 drinks?! tim got me a long island at the end and i had two sips and was just out...

they dropped me off at my apt and i knocked out for a couple hours...woke up to banging on my door...got home at 730am...ugh...what is this...freshman year or something?!?! oh well...i had fun though...its been awhile since i chilled with these boys...good times =)



hmm...went out with my rockstars on friday night =) thanx to that guy we went to garden of eden...when i get the pictures i guess i'll post em...it was nice partying with ALL of them again =) id have to say we're not as crazy as we once were...or theyre not crazy as they once were...not a bad thing or anything...guess we're all getting old =P

it was a good weekend...catching up with people i havent seen in awhile =) i guess the reality of it is...after this semester...things really are going to change...who knows where everyone is going to be off to...gotta enjoy it while they're still around...

:: Gina 6:46 PM ::
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You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.


What feeling do you represent?
brought to you by Quizilla

hmm...angst...i guess its somewhat fitting...<shrug>

:: Gina 2:07 PM ::
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<yawn> incredibly tired...but not able to sleep...too many thoughts swirling around in my head...

first week for classes are over...i think i finally got my schedule fixed...looks like its not going to be THAT hard of a semester...which is nice =) last semester =\ sort of scary...

i do have a final on the LAST day of finals though...thats annoying...oh well...

been watching hotelier...makes me really happy for some reason...maybe cuz im still towards the beginning...but the guys are still chasing after the girls...and its really sweet =) the little things they do and stuff...and the guys are strangely attractive...not the typical...omg hes so hot type...but they have a certain air to them that i like...

seems so innocent =)

it's things like this that seem to be keeping me sane...a bit of consistency i guess...

theres some taiwan pictures i can post...but im too lazy...probs do it this weekend...better try to get some sleep again...until next time...bye bye

:: Gina 2:33 AM ::
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was going through old blogs...these always tends to be interesting:

things i like in a guy:
October 23, 2001

- musical talent: doesnt matter what kind, but if he can sing =) or anything...omg <drool>...soooo HOT =P

- however trite this sounds, sense of humor: must be able to make me laugh...and for reals, how hard is that?!?!?! very easily amused...

- height: those tall ones, plus plus plus. makes me fuells like a girl =)

- korean guys: <shrug> sally says its only cuz the ones that ive been with have been really good to me, but there are bad ones out there...lucky me then...haha

- speaks another language: soooo HOT too...haha...not as hot as the musical talent one...but still...whatever language...chinese, korean...even spanish <for those who took it in high school>...=P

- oh...must be able to stay up past 10pm: i go to class <well sometimes>, come back and sleep, wake up, and watch tv...please please please be awake when all the shows get boring and i finally sign on...=P im up...you be up too =)

- a lil bit of craziness: bring out my wild side >=)...<cough>...yeah...just know how to relax a lil and have some fun...dont care a lil about what other people are thinking and just let go =)

- intelligence: man, i know i dont study, but its not necessarily academic, its like...i have to be able to have a decent conversation without having to explain what im saying...stupid people suck as boyfriends...it just gets frustrating...

- randoms: wears big clothes, piercings <ears, tongue, lip, eyebrow...>, drives stick <just a random turn-on>

October 25, 2001

what i dont like in a guy:

- guys that think everything g3y without first giving it a shot...or cares too much about what other people think to act themselves

- guys that spend too much time cs-ing, crafting, q3-ing, questing...blah blah blah

- guys with excessive body hair <chest, back, happy trail...>

- guys i have to explain things to...movies, tv, jokes...ugh...basically stupid guys

- guys that break promises...generic

- guys that dont call after a date...ugh...then you just sit there wondering...what if he didnt like me...what if this...what if that...ugh

- guys that dont take initiative...you are the GUY of the relationship...do something...i dont care how inexperienced you are or how scary it is to make the first move...<not referring to anyone...>

- guys that smoke...not that important...but still...

ugh...theres plenty more...


its funny to see what has changed...but mostly...that things havent changed...then again its a very generic list...what was it though...its not about the person the meets your standards...its the person that makes you forget them...

im in that mode again.

:: Gina 8:42 PM ::
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apparently i have no sense...i guess its kind of hard to swallow being told something like that...but then again...if i think about the situation i put myself in...i really dont have any...

youre suppose to learn from your experiences and then not make the same mistakes again...but then why do i keep making the same mistakes...i find myself in the same situation as before and i dont do anything about it...<ramble ramble ramble>

not very happy right now...

on the other side of things...went to lou's today for the first time in forever...his house is like...transformed...the floor is all redone...the kitchen is all different...and the angels outside are even upgraded...lol...then the projection factor...makes the video games that much cooler...=P had some fried chicken nuggets...watched the bunch of them play beer games...good times...good times...

"something is burning" teehehehehehehe...

tried this new stuff...this green alcohol...it was pretty nasty...tasted like black licorice...couldnt stomach it...oh well...

:: Gina 1:07 AM ::
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alright...calculated up the movies for 2003 and it came out to 138...in reality it was probably much more than that cuz of all the partial movies that ive watched and maybe a few in there that i forgot to list...not too bad i guess...but i would have figured it to be more...stupid pledging at the beginning of the year...missed out on a good 2 months...but lets say that its 2 hrs a movie average...thats like...276 hours...not too bad...11.5 days...tahahahaha...

:: Gina 11:16 PM ::
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back from taiwan...it was...an interesting experience...those of you that care have probably already talked to me about it =) the good thing is...i lost some weight =P

wow...its 2004...happy new year!

crazy!

im sick =(...maybe i have sars...=\ that would suck...fever and a small cough...massive headache...

spent ALL yesterday in bed...only time i tried to do something was watch alias =) got in 4 episodes before passing out...so good...

a bit better now...but still feeling shitty...dont think ill be leaving the house anytime soon...ahh..what a horrible way to end break...hopefully ill be better later this week...

gotta find a job...any suggestions?

this is probably one of my worst blog entries ever...but im sick...and starting to fever up again...so...thats all youre going to get =P

:: Gina 1:18 PM ::
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