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< Saturday, February 28, 2004 >

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

so how is life?

dont want to study...but...gotta graduate...two midterms this coming week

friday...went to work...did a horrible thing you can ask me about if you care...haha...came home and chilled...got dressed up and went over to pauls...jc came =) ...amy came with her new puppy and we played with it for a little bit...then finally at 1130 headed out to mountain bar...it was really nice =) i liked it...had like two drinks then went to the chinese place across the street...it was good to see jc again...i missed the psychobitch stories...but i got the main feel for it...=P

didnt really do anything today...life as a house was on tv...such an amazing movie...it was even better than i remember it to be...the dialogue...ugh...it heart wrenching...i want to LOVE like that...<sigh>...and of course...hayden...<muah!>

saw a blue SL55 today...<drool>...almost had an orgasm...tahaha...

ok...back to pretty women and asian american psychology =P

:: Gina 9:14 PM ::
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b: oh yah
b: that girl keeps iming me
b: she imed me twice within 2 seconds
b: hi
b: hi
Is He Cute: you must have really done somethinig to her
b: nothing!
b: shes still a virgin
b: and ive only seen her like maybe 5 times max
Is He Cute: but....
Is He Cute: she gave you head?!?!?!
b: eh....she wnated to...
b: for my birthday...
b: she said..
Is He Cute: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

damn...

:: Gina 8:49 PM ::
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t: summer
t: wow
t: H
t: O
t: T
t: her names matches
Is He Cute: lol
Is He Cute: =)
t: they need to change anna's name to winter
t: she sucks
Is He Cute: LOL

d: god he's such a pimp
Is He Cute: LOL
Is He Cute: i love that show
d: so much crazyness
Is He Cute: i love it
Is He Cute: i love it
d: he was wearing my shirt today
Is He Cute: lol
d: i bought that 2 weeks ago
d: that bitch
Is He Cute: like the other shirt
Is He Cute: that you wanted to get
Is He Cute: you are so OC
d: yeah
d: i HAVE that one
Is He Cute: lol

i dont need to repeat how great the show it...right after it ends...5 IMs and a phone call...says something =P

:: Gina 10:29 PM ::
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boo!!! >=(

"Mike made his decision that he wants to go to the NFL," USC
coach Pete Carroll said Wednesday. "We're disappointed that we're
losing him because he's had a terrific two years for us. ... But
we're anxious to watch him in the NFL."

:: Gina 12:14 PM ::
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wow...todays episode of american idol was so good...like...pretty much everyone was good...or fantastic...i think its the first episode where i didnt really not like anyone...who still watches?...cuz it seems like i have no one to talk this over with...

tough day today...avg on the earthquakes midterm is a 68%...will find out what i got tomorrow...chinese civ midterm didnt go THAT well either...could have been much better...just couldnt think clearly i guess...

kids were alright today =) i was exhausted when i walked in ...and somewhat refreshed when i walked out...pictures are on delay because of a busted computer...soon hopefully though...

:: Gina 9:17 PM ::
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so i heard this song on the radio awhile back...the words i could relate to...but the song itself was just a little too "clay aiken"ish for me...anywayz...its by hoobastank...the reason:

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

it really corny...yeah...but its just like...things have changed a lot in the last few years...im turing 22 in a month...if i think back to the last couple birthdays...its like...damn...<but then...i havent had a good b-day in awhile...i mean the parties are fun...i get fucked up...but thats cuz...i want to get fucked up cuz the rest of my life isnt going too well...hmm...>...so yeah...for awhile there it was going good...but now its sort of back to a downward spiral...i need that support again...just a couple more months and ill be rid of this school business...i just need to get through this! i just feel like ive lost that motivation...the reason...haha...<sigh> "good luck on your test..." "how did it go?" so simple...

its really not that bad...no matter how much i fuck up...theres no way im not goign to pass my classes...i think im just delirious right now...lack of sleep...sleep...sleeeeeeep...

:: Gina 4:12 AM ::
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heres some pix from the weekend:


daniels ghetto booty...tahahaha


peggie and frank


peggie and me


i wasnt drunk...i swear...

:: Gina 10:50 PM ::
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shit...i have a midterm tuesday for my chinese civ class...i havent even bought the course reader...bleh...

this weekend...friday...a couple of things i wanted to do but nothing falling into place...called up daniel...so peggie and i headed out with him and some of his people to bliss in k-town...havent been k-town drinking in awhile so that was fun =) got some mixed drinks and of course the soju and hite...haha..."asians are the most evolved race"...little incident with the bill but overall good times good times =)

spent most of yesterday just chillin...erica had her 16th b-day party <for those of you that have been around...doesnt that make you feel soooooo old>...picked up 6 pizzas for her from costco =P...had dinner at a japanese place that i will for sure go back to...its like another tenko...in the same plaza as china west...watched hollywood homocide and thirteen...the chick in thirteen is really pretty...im glad i never got to that level...lucky for her she got through that phase at such a young age though...still have time to start over...

alright...guess i should go start studying...=) bye bye

:: Gina 4:34 PM ::
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lol...just went on friendster...been awhile but someone wanted me to add them...cant believe people are still updating that...good stuff...still addicting...esp since a lot of profiles have changed since i last checked...but cant stay on too long...should be studying after all...

went to my chinese civilization class...had a review session for the midterm on tuesday...ended a bit early...ive been to that class 3 times since the beginning of the semster...and the notes one of the days doesnt even count...great...haha

earthquakes midterm is at 1230...studied a bit last night...but its so boring...haha...shouldnt be too hard though...hopefully...not aiming for an A or anything...so i should be good

<yawn> heres more song lyrics:

To know you is to hate you
So loving you must be like suicide
I don't mind if you don't mind
I'm not the one that's going to die
I guess i just can't listen
To this one sided conversation again
`cause I don't care if I don't care
No one ever said that life is fair

Everybody loves a joke
But no one likes a fool
And you're always cracking the same old lines again
You're well rehearsed on every verse
And that was stated clear
But no one understands your verity

The center of attention
Got an honerable mention once again
Congratulations and salutations
You're a figment of your own imagination

Everybody loves a joke
But no one likes a fool
And you're always cracking the same old lines again
You're well rehearsed on every verse
And that was stated clear
But no one understands your verity

To know you is to bait you
And you fell victim to your own denial
I don't mind if you don't mind
If you're wasting all your time

:: Gina 10:54 AM ::
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DAMN!!! the OC is soooooooooooooooo good!!! i cant get over it...so ridculously good...summer is hot...seth is hotter...luke is even looking good..."i beat kirsten?"...it seriously just makes me happy...props to ryan for not taking marissa back too...stupid bitch =) theresa's pretty...she has nice eyebrows =) the dad is the coolest person in the world...and the mom is so cute...shooting the cupid's arrow =P summer in the red outfit playing the videgame...and the yellow velour on her bed..."anything you say summer...yes yes"...and the whole thing seth said to summer...great...well done...<applaud>

enough of that...took pix of my kids...will post this weekend when i get the wires to upload them =)

:: Gina 11:03 PM ::
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had a decent weekend...got buzzed 3 nights in a row...<shake>...good job gina...<sigh>

am i depressed or something? maybe...

i want to be in love again...its been way too long...yeah ive been in relationships...but nothing lately that i would say was really love...<shrug> its different now...seemed so easy before...to find someone that was compatible...now it seems like its just...blah...it shouldnt take so much effort...i shouldnt have to feel the way i do...i dont need to find things out that should already have been told to me...is it worth it?

ok...no more of that for now...sunday...went to korean tofu with kenny and some of his friends...then headed over to stephs to play cranium...good times...that game isnt easy man...my team had the worst luck in the world though...wtf is a chippuwa...or however you spell it...drank a good amount...friggin tang and twist/cap. m./vanilla sm...havent had tang in ages...but it actually didnt taste too bad...better than the reactions that the wasabee cookies got...HAHA...whose friggin idea was it to make cookies that tasted like wasabi...good thing we didnt start the "crunchy" rule =P

i think in the back of my mind i dont want to graduate or something...cuz at the rate im going...im going to fail all my classes...going to turn in a paper now that i havent finished...HA...plus i missed all my classes today...midterm on thur too...someone slap me back into shape...ive worked too hard these last few semesters to fuck up now...

:: Gina 3:04 PM ::
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“If you want me to fall for you... you gotta give me sumthin worth trippin over.”
haha...read that somewhere and thought it was funny...

usually i cant stand dashboard...but i actually really like hands down...and yeah...its old now...but i heard it today so here:

Breathe in for luck breathe in so deep this air is blessed you share with me this
night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they race
from self control your legs are smooth
as they graze mine we're doing fine we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted,
just lay entwined here undiscovered.
Safe from the earth and all the stupid questions..
"hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear, so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My
heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and
the time on the clock when we realized
it's so late and the walk that we shared together.
The street was wet and the gate was locked
so I jumped it and let you in and you stood at the door
with your hands on my waist and you kissed me,
but you meant it and I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it, that you meant it,
and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it.

...such a great feeling...miss it...

:: Gina 6:40 PM ::
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hmm...im hurting =\ pain pain pain!!! i hate being a girl...

so how was everyones v-day? me? woke up early yesterday and met up with paul, ryan, and todd to go test-drive cars...too bad the lines for each car was talking an hour each...test drove like 3 cars...nothing interesting...ate and then left...

was so exhausted...ridiculous...got a call from that guy...went to his place and passed out...sleep never felt so good...then a bunch of drama...ugh...<sorry>...headed home and changed...went to balboa on sunset...got to the resturant an hour after the reservation...waited a bit at the bar (with the bartender who had the HUGEST boobs in the world...super nice)...got seated...it was delicious =) <thanx>

watched bits of movies...finally settled on mighty ducks...hey...its pacey =P...finished that up and crashed...

i have a paper due on tuesday...my first real assignment of the year...and i have a midterm thursday...grr...guess things are finally picking up...my head hurts...bye bye

:: Gina 5:06 PM ::
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so ive seen like 2 cute v-day thingies so far...yay!!! =)

went to see barbershop 2...it was...alright...the funny parts were funny...<shrug>

the kids were insane today...the friggin candy from valentines day or something had them all sugared up...i was like..wtf...soooooo hyper...then one of them took my mechanical pencil...which has a metal tip...and was like...swinging it all around...another kids head happens to swing in the opposite direction...what do you think happens...friggin tore up the side of the kids face...ok...im making it sound much worse than it really was...it was just a scratch...but it was really really red =\ friday is math day...which means they do these math packets...they had to do math problems...adding double digits...and none of them knew how to carry the one...so finally i got to teach something...but its not like you can sit down 9 sixth graders and tell teach them...oh well...i got to most of them by the end of the class session...

going to go drive cars tomorrow or something...haha...who knows...ryan wong is taking paul...so im taggin along...we'll see how that goes =) night!

:: Gina 3:01 AM ::
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you have no idea how cute my kids are =) im borrowing a digital camera this weekend...so soon you will realize how cute they are! =) everyone was basically done with their homework when i got there today...except i had to give two kids a pretest...one of them was all excited when taking it...but then he got 3 wrong...and almost started to cry...youre suppose to write the words that you get wrong 3 times and he did it all big and sloppy...=\ i didnt know what to do...eric was being extra annoying today...so i kicked him out of the classroom...haha...my first timeout!!! =) gina is so mean! after that lil bit the kids started reading...and it was all quiet...they were so cute =) ryan always asks "who gave me __ stars?" its the cutest thing in the world...i think i need a video camera...not a digital...=P

so i think its cuz its v-day season or something...but today as i was walking out of my earthquakes class...theres this tree with white flowers and when theres a breeze the petals float off into the air...its REALLY pretty and the sun was out and the grass all green...it makes me miss having a bf at school...walk me to class...DRIVE me to class =P but just cuz i miss it...doesnt mean i want it! =P too much baggage comes along with an everyday relationship...ugh...it was very beautiful though =)

so its set...spring break in SOUTH BEACH!!! miami = beach = sun = bikini = incentive to lose some weight! can wait to get a tan again...im sooo excite!!! rockstars partying it up! our hotel is beautiful...cant wait!

so no ones told me any romantic plans for v-day...whats going on guys!?! you all better be getting surprises or something...seems like everyone is too busy and taking the easy way out this year...i did hear one story though...erica's violin teacher is taking his gf (erica's ex-piano teacher...how cute is that) to PARIS and PROPOSING to her at some fancy restaurant =) theyve been together for NINE years...shit man...if i stay with a guy for 9 years without a proposal...he better take me to paris or something...HAHA...i guess he wanted to buy a house before gettinig married...and he just got a new place...so...time to get married...lol...im happy for them =)

tired...night!

:: Gina 1:37 AM ::
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JULIE AND LUKE!!! JULIE AND LUKE!!! i love it =) i love it i love it i love it!!! damn...its sad that this is the highlight of my week huh...haha....seems like its one of the only things that can get me smiling these days =)

that and ryan...i love him...i think the kids can tell i favor him...cuz i never yell at him...and i randomly will give him stars =) hes so cute though!!!...and when he tries to suck up to me...its the most adorable thing in the world =) i want one!!! i was helping him with homework today while the kid next to him went to get water or something...so when the kid came back in the room i scooted over a seat in the opposite direction and he followed me =) ...all the kids were like...you like her huh?!??! =P

so i think im suppose to bring the kids something for valentines day on friday...like those heart candies or something...or make little valentines for all of them...i guess ill just go buy some cellophane and kisses...

whats everyone doing for v-day? i want to hear some cute stories since im single this year and wont expereince it =P and none of this:
Is He Cute: what are you doing for v-day
c: masturbate vigorously

alright girls and boys...time to crash...

:: Gina 12:15 AM ::
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Nemesis


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hahahha....sooooooo not me


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<shrug>...haha

:: Gina 1:23 PM ::
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i cant make it to class!!! these friggin morning classes are KILLING me!!!

<sigh>

ugh...hope i can sleep early tonight...so i tried to go to sleep last night...but i couldnt...i was soooooo tired too...so i started reading...but i finished my book and i still wasnt tired...watched some of my korean drama...still wanst able to fall asleep...

in the end...didnt go to bed til after 3am...=\ then i woke up at 830...took a shower at 930...and then all of a sudden it was 1130...<sigh>

plus im still a bit sick...cant breathe...

heres a convo i found interesting:
r: i was hanging out w/ these girls on the wekeend
r: and it was a windy nite
r: when we got out of the car the 1st thing they said was..it's cold
r: and automatically the guys grabbed the girls and held them
r: one of the girls said, "where are all the fat guys when you need them"
r: i thought that was pretty funny.

anywayz...gotta catch at least one clas...bye bye

:: Gina 1:22 PM ::
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Drew at BRU (2:40:49 PM): =P
kurtbier (2:42:33 PM): what does that mean..not hip to all the IM lingo

:: Gina 11:47 AM ::
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soooooo.........the other day i got this e-mail about commencement and going to the expo thingie to order cap and gown and invitations and stuff...

today i got in the mail the commencement schedule and dipolma frame order form...

<scream>...im graduating...<shudder>

scared...

:: Gina 6:59 PM ::
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The only consistent feature of all your dissatisfying relationships is you.

:: Gina 3:58 PM ::
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ahh...two more commericials i love...

the american cancer society one...with the old couple bowling...i swear i teared up...
the truck commerical where the guy is singing shania twains "feel like a women"...teeheehee

:: Gina 4:54 PM ::
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b: i'll call you from europe (you know, to say good night)

i want to go to europe! too bad spring break is so short...=\ where's everyone going for spring break?

:: Gina 11:39 PM ::
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the chips ahoy cookie commerical really gets to me...i cant stand it...its really fucked up...its the one where theyre all clay people at a b-day party and the cookie is there too...and they finish singing happy b-day and the cookie asks where the cake is and the girl says that theyre not having cake...sooooo not cool

commerical that i do like though...is the sprint one with the daughter that wont shut up and braiding everything...i love how the dad has nail polish on...its very cute

hmm...sorta pissed off right now...so trying to keep my mind off of it...what happened today...made it to all my classes...went to work...i forgot to mention that i got a new student...his name is justin...hes not as bright as the other kids...but oh well...

worked my first day in the annenberg tv newsroom today too...im in charge of calling people to get interviews and stuff...can you believe that not ONE single professor at USC, UCLA, CSULA, LACC, PCC, and SMC would do an interview about the process of the presidential election!?!?! one chick said its cuz no one really knows how it works...so they dont want to talk about it =P

alright...this isnt working...ill go vent to the people online...thahaha...suckers =)

:: Gina 11:24 PM ::
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perspective

:: Gina 1:48 AM ::
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i have to say my kids make my life actually somewhat interesting...it mixes things up a little bit...and you never know how theyre going to react from one day to another...like today...ryan, who's usually a trouble maker...did not make a sound! he just sat there and read the whole time...i didnt have to say his name once!...but i think it was cuz something was wrong...cuz i asked him after class why he was so quiet...and he was all sad...and wouldnt tell me =\ ill see what happens tomorrow...also, patrick who was all good last week...is acting horrible this week...dont know what to do...

i was going to take digi pix of all of them and post them online...but i dont have a digi cam =\ anyone want to let me borrow theirs? =)

hmm...so i got paid...$11/hr...in cash baby! no tax...yay for shady asians =) not complaining here!

had some terrific korean food monday night =) relatively cheap too =) yay...but now my clothes smell...haha...found out who my lil sis is...I HAVE A LIL SIS!!! didnt want one...but now that i have one...im pretty excited...big/lil nite is friday...

nothing out of the ordinary today...went to class...went to work...went to meeting...watched tv...now its bedtime...

:: Gina 1:42 AM ::
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weekend is over...sucks...sucks even more now that i have work on monday and friday...which just means that i have a normal persons schedule...haha...

not too bad of a weekend...saturday met up with judy at tapioca and talked for like...2 hours...she gave me this really cute star-shaped jewelry box =)...dominic was there...man...it was cool catching up...known this girl since 7th grade...9 years...

went to that guys place but he was sleeping...so i watched blow and the ring...yay for hbo...had dinner with family then headed to steve's b-day dinner at golden china...there was like 30 people there...it was like...3 girls and 27 guys...haha...finished up there and headed back to their house...

THEN!!! we went and watched you got served...tahahahhaha...i wanted to see it so bad...but no one would see it with me...now i went with a group of like 20 people...thahahah....the movie was pretty bareable...except for the sister chick...she was HORRIBLE...other than that...its pretty much what you expect...better than honey...haha

then the uni kids seperated from the bethel kids and went drinking...hahaha...went to some japanese place on brookhurst...got some beer and sake...steve got semi-wasted...happy 22nd...

still couldnt get a full night of sleep...awoken sunday by hella phone calls...went to lunch at a korean place...mm...tofu =)...yum! watched the super bowl...missed pretty much the first quarter...it seemed quite an uneventful game...i guess when youre not really rooting for either team...it just isnt that exciting...then of course the janet thing...it was quite shocking...i sorta had to look around the room to make sure i wasnt that only one who saw it...unexpected i guess...

stopped by kennys...went to spectrum...chilled at dnb...chilled at coffee bean...left pretty early...studied a bit and then went to sleep...

k...time to go see my kids...bye bye!

:: Gina 3:24 PM ::
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